The Rising Page

My Musings

22 July

Dear God

Dear God,

I wish I had words eloquent enough to express what I am feeling.

I know you exist but why is it so easy for me to seek comfort in my doubt when I should be running to you.

Today, surrender stood out – but not in the worship way. In the reality way.

Can surrender be surrender if we are not letting go of what we hold dear? According to history and most probably English as well >> to surrender is characterised as “giving up”. But when it comes to you, is it really to give up but more to entrust?

A silent whisper that says, “Here, Lord have this as well.”

A secret knowing that repeats, “Rest. All is well”

A word that resonates in the deep secret places.

…You are enough…

21 July

The Great Unknown

I fear that I have been flung in it.

The great sea of life, with never a calm moment.

Turbulent waves, here.

Violent waves, there.


They should have given me a boat.

Maybe a life jacket or some other kind of floatation thingie.

Instead they gave me words.



What good are words?

Ahh… This great sea of life, with never a calm moment.

Yes, I fear that I flung myself in it, once again.

05 July

Looking Back… May 2014

Nothing seems to compare the euphoria that surrounds living in denial.

Nothing like an attempt to ground yourself reality while secretly hoping against hope.

Nothing like secret hope that so quickly fades as soon as doubts kick in.


Doubt is not the right word,

Heartache is more accurate.

What do you do with heartache?

What can you say to someone afflicted with this?

Should they hope or not.


My reflection smiles back.

A sad knowing smile.

I slam the door; Maybe the mirror will shatter

I will not have to look upon such a flawed reflection

Yet it’s thoughts like these that lead down a dangerous path


Reach out; Reach up

You are stronger than this

You will get through this

Does anyone ever believe any of that


It’s the darkness that creeps into the light that moves the fastest

The contrast should be obvious yet we are so oblivious to it

It’s in hidden conflicts and silent pain that pillows get salted.

It is in hope that salt is all they get.


Arms wrapped around her middle.

Her pillows continue to get their salt treatment.

Writing never helped.


02 November

CMU Alumni Speak: Edwin

Meet Edwin Kairu; a Carnegie Mellon Alumni with over 5 years of experience in vulnerability assessments, penetration testing, and network forensics and malware analysis. He has worked in both the private and non-governmental sectors, having held several different positions at Deloitte & Touche, the World Bank and a global financial institution based in New York.

We met up with him to find out #whyCMU.

Q: What did you study at CMU?

Information Security Policy and Management (MSISPM).

Q: Why did you choose CMU? What makes it unique?

I knew I wanted a career in cyber security from my early undergrad days and CMU was not only world renown for Information Technology, but also a top research institution.

Furthermore, CMU’s affiliation with the world’s premier CERT program and the fact that it offered a Master’s degree in my area of focus, was the final selling point for me.

Q: How did CMU impact your career?

Without the foundational training in network security and incident response I received at CMU, I literally would not have been able to carry out the duties at my first job as a security consultant.

The name recognition of a CMU degree also goes a long way in reassuring those I interact with professionally, that I have both the technical and analytical skills to do the job.

Q: Do you have any advice for people considering a Master’s degree?

Pursue it only if you’re truly passionate about the profession you hope it will lead you to. Obtaining a Masters from CMU is not for the faint of heart!

However, the sense of accomplishment, caliber of education, global recognition and career opportunities it will open up for you are well worth it.

Are you passionate about your profession?

Are you ready to make the commitment to work hard with everything you have got in you?

If so, then go here, to begin your application.

01 November

Girls Inspiring Girls: CMU-R Girls

You’ve heard the saying, “… Educate a Girl; Educate a Nation – Brigham Young“, Carnegie Mellon University – Rwanda believes in empowering women and encouraging girls to pursue their dreams and reach for the stars.

Here are a couple of stories from some of “CMU-R Girls”…

Lynn K.

Frist Year Student

Share her experience about choosing Carnegie Mellon University – Rwanda. – Click here to read her story.

Esther K.

Second Year Student

Shares her experience being enrolled at Carnegie Mellon University – Rwanda. - Click here to read her story.

Crystal R.

Carnegie Mellon University Alumni

Share her experience about Carnegie Mellon University and how it impacted her career. -  Click here to read her story.

If you have found these stories inspiring, share them with other girls who are passionate about ICT and are thinking about pursuing their masters studies.

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